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Shawn Mendes Fears His “Darkness”

today29 June 2021


Oh no. 


Shawn Mendes, who is dating fellow musician Camila Cabello, recently had an argument which led to Mendes discovering a new side to himself. As he recalled on the Man Enough podcast, 


“I raised my voice at her and she was like, ‘I don’t like it when you raise your voice. Why did you raise your voice?’ And I got so defensive.”



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Mendes went on,


“I was like, ‘I wasn’t raising my voice at you!’ And I did raise my voice at her. And I felt her shrink and I felt me grow and I was like, ‘Oh god, this is the worst.’ I’m so terrified of being evil. I’m so scared to be bad. I don’t want to be bad.”


However, the couple is very supportive towards one another with Cabello working to understand Mendes a little better. The couple “had to get in this massive conversation” about this deep-rooted fear in order to find out what was really going on in Mendes’s psyche. 



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“Maybe there even is bad inside of me, and I have to just accept that,” he admitted on the podcast. “And that other part of me, he’s just got to be here and we’ve just got to work together until eventually he gets worked in all of the trauma and all of the kinks get rubbed out of him and he’s OK. But I can’t avoid the fact that there’s a little bit of darkness inside of me and letting that darkness kind of be present is a horrible feeling.”


And after opening up to his lady, it was Cabello who comforted him.


“I made it about my evil and my fear, and she comforted me,” he reflected. “And then it took me like 20 minutes of us separately reading our books to be able to come back to her and be like, ‘God, that was a whole thing and I’m really sorry.'”



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Love ain’t always rainbows and sunshine. When the rain hits, you have to hold on tight to your partner until it passes. Remember these three keys: communication, support, and understanding!


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Written by: Farah Qistina

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